SaYD TrIP 3

Wla talaga kayong maaasahang maganda- gandang post sa'kin ngayon... Tambak pa lahat ng gawa... Kailangan ko lang talagang makapag- post pang- relax... hehehe
'Eto sayd Tripin' na naman

1)What do you miss eating?
- isaw, chicharon, dami!

2) What do you want to receive on your birthday?
- PSP sana pero wala... umaasa pa rin naman ako, lapit na christmas!

3) Reach your hand out to the right. What do you touch?
- TV

4) What time did you sleep last night?
- 11 something... kailangan kong magising ng maaga kinabukasan

5) What's the wallpaper on your computer?
- basta beach

6) What can you hear besides the computer?
- ugong ng antique na stand fan

7) What is your favorite line to say when bored?
-nothing specific... pero inaantok ako parati...

8) When was the last time tears started to roll down your cheek?
- kanina lang... amazing ang survey na 'to, updated... makaigo man hoy!

9) The last person you were on the phone with?
- Tatay

10) What makes you frustrated?
- haven't accomplished any plans/ activities during the day

11) What song you listening to?
- hindi ko alam ang title... pinarinig lang ng kapatid ko sa'kin

12) Current mood?
- mixed... apprehensive... hoping... paranoid... bored sa kakaisip

13) Who will you turn to if you have a huge prob?
- no one... I have to face it myself... si nanay, minsan

14)What's your favorite song at the moment?
- nothing in particular

15) What was the last song that kept ringing on your mind last night before you sleep?
- song ng paramore... hindi ko alam ang title uli!

16) What was the best event that happened last year?
- wala... the past years seems so fast- paced and it went like a blur

17) Where have you been today?
- hatchery... sked ko to count para sa F116

18) Last thing you ate?
- manok

19) Who are you with right now?
- none... tulog na mga tao

21) Do you love sunsets?
- as much as I want to appreciate sunsets, I won't... I would just be hopeless contemplating on things and not be wary of how mushy I could get

23) What are your wishes for your birthday?
- hindi natupad... hanggang ngayon

24) Who do you wanna be w/ on the day of your birthday?
- those people I value and appreciate most in my life

25) Have you ever felt that you've been taken for granted?
- a lot... I've been through this time and time again...

26) Things you regret?
- a lot (agen?;p) but there's no point dwelling on that

27) Is there anything else you want to do besides answering this survey?
- matapos ko ang paper na ginagawa ko ngayon

28) Do you miss your past?
- yes... I miss my friends... I miss the jokes and the laughs... I miss everyone...

29) Chocolate cake or brazo de mercedes?
- chocolate cake

30) How do you feel right now?
- parang ganito rin 'yung kanina ah

31) What's your plan next week?
- madami... basta it concerns skul... hehehe

32) Missing someone?
-yes, and I'm afraid we won't be having a chance to see each other

33) What's her/his role in your life?
- he's a major difference... LO, hang on... ano pigaw?

34) Have you hurt somebody in the past?
- yes

35) The person who loves u most or the person u love most?
- nanay... corny noh?! playing safe?

36) In a relationship, rebound, dating, flying solo, whatever?
-flying solo...I'll only fly away

37) Interesting thing happened to you today?
- muntik ko nang mabitawan ang haema na katumbas ng 2 semester na tuition...

38) Ever talked to someone that was high?
- last week lang... I expected much though, turned out I misjudged him!

39) What's annoying you right now?
- When can I go home to Capiz?

40) If killing were legal, who would you kill?
- some of those that make s my blood boil... hahahah (EVil laugh!)

SAyD TrIP 2

1. Who has your hear?

- ngayon? wala!!!
2. Whats your name without vowels?

- rnld ptrck fmsrn
3. Who was the last person to call you?

- kapitbahay nmin... Tita Merlie, nagtanong lang... hehe
4. What is the last alcoholic beverage you had?

- I can't remember
5. Would you take any of your exes back?

- when reasons may seem so valid... when I've given enough thinking and weighing... when I still am not over her... thing is, you really can't tell. But given the circumstance, I think its fitting to reconsider... Siyyyeeeet, daw piho!
6. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?

- hahaha... Yes and No. I can't tell
7. Did you sing at all today?

- Did you not sing at all today sana?!
8. When is the last time you cried?

-a couple of weeks ago
9. What's the last text in your inbox say?

- FREE HOROSCOPE. Magdownload na ng...
10. Are you scared of spiders?

- no
11. Who were you with last night?

- Sa lab. ako natulog... si Moji at si Kuya Noel, si Manong guard. Tinapos ko thesis ko
12. What have you learned recently?

- All you need to give is a poker face... No squabbles, no talk!
13. Do you believe in love?

- Uh, uh... Oo
14. Have you done anything you regret in 2008 so far or messed up?

- Ang dami kong mali this year...
15. Do you miss someone?

- Oo
16. Do you curse alot?

- Yes, I mean a lot. As in a lot. I'm taking much effort to not make it a habit... hehehe
17. What was the last thing you ate?

- adobo
18. What color is your hair?

- black
19. Who knows a secret or two about you?

- No one... and I ain't gonna spill it to anyone
20. Are you too forgiving?

- hahaha... Not at all. I mean you could exhaust all your resources to apologize. The last thing you want to do is to say sorry to me. But keep it to yourself. We can be cool, but that's just it!
21. Ever had a sleepover with the opposite sex?

- yes
22. If someone liked you would you like for them to tell you?

- NO... it will seem so awkward and badass
23. Do you have trust issues?

- MAJOR TRUST ISSUE
24. Who was your second inbox text from?

- simply reply to this text message... galing ke amang!
25. Who do you like to spend your nights with?

- as in like, uhmmmm....
26. Do you like someone to tell you that they love you?

- gago nang hindi niya gusto!
27. Do you want someone you can't have?

- it all boils down on how much are you willing to stake for the person... It's a game of chance!
28. How long does it take you to get ready?

- Hindi ko maintindihan 'to!
29. Do you ever wanna know who you're going to be married to?

- I've known for some reason or the other whom I'll be marrying... Trust my guts on this!
30. What are you looking forward to?

- Christmas... Tatay going home...
31. Does anyone hate you for no reason?

I think so... I don't give a damn!

SaYD TrIP

Are you mean?
- I can be! Yes, I think I am

What are you going to do tomorrow?
- Pass my thesis experiment's result.
- Get into Biochem. and suffer the torture.
- Hopefully, makaset- up for 2nd run.

Who was the last person's house you went to besides your own?
- Boardinghouse lang... kina Ren

Do you like someone right now?
- Na-ah-ah

Listening to music?
- hindi, kumakanta ako mag-isa

What did you do today?
- Pasok sa skwela
- Magbasa
- Nagmeet for report tomorrow

What is your favorite flavor ice cream?
- I'm not fond of eating ice cream at all... Really!!! ;P

Anything annoying you right now?
- hollers
- fuckups
- bitches

What did you do last night?
- hahaha... ayokong sabihin!

Who did you ride in a car with last besides your family?
- Classmate ng kapatid ko

What does your shirt say on it?
- Wala, drawing lang

What did you do last Sunday?
- Natulog

Do you have any bruises?
- Oo, sa likod... nabugbog sa biyahe pauwi

What were you doing at noon yesterday?
- Eat out

Have you been outside today?
- Sa skul

The last text you received on your cell was from?
- Pia

Who was ur last call from?
- uhmmm... Tatay!

What do you miss?
- spending summer with... basta masaya 'pag summer

Are you wearing any jewelry?
- jewelry ba ang relo?

The last place you went?
- Tiangge!

Do you sing in the shower?
- C'mon, how long will it take you to be in the shower singing sana?

Who was your last message to?
- Pie, answer assignment sa Physics!

Do you think you're wasting your time on the person you like?
- Not at all! ;P

Beneath the Surface

I've encountered this a couple of times. I should, at all, won't give a budge on this. Probably, it's more of paranoia that they are talking behind my back. For the longest time, I keep telling myself not to delve into this. Nonsense, insinuation of good-for- nothing bitches. Still, I can't stop myself from getting pissed off. Or better yet, I'm pissed off because they're talking bad. Me, on the headlines!

It's more of an instinct. Maybe, of intuition that's going on the right lane. That quiet talks that hide the real business that goes on beneath the surface. It's hard to think I trusted them, for one reason or the other. For the record, I'm not at all affected that my trust was found futile. What cause my woes is the fact that they've got no goddamn business to talk about me.

I knew it from the smiles. From that rather sublime conversations. It's even more annoying when they hunch into each other and make face in unison. How bad I want to get their head squash off. Listen to what people are not saying, and listen is what I did. To my utmost delight it really is sensational. Much to their delight!

I'll be the one to admit that I talk beyond others back. But it's plain talk! Even if I had backstab anyone, I think it was more valid and not just instituted by fury. It was plain, polite small talk that has nothing to offer but boring stuff under the weather. Okay, I can be accused of this. I have to admit. But I have to scold myself time and time again for doing it. And I'm trying my hardest not to do it.

Trust. I hardly give any. I really don't trust anyone. Much more now thatI have decipher the booboos and fuckups. I ain't gonna give any. Even if I will, it will purely be because he/she deserves it. Not because of mere acquaintance and association.

From this day forward, I'll amend the rules. Reconstitute ideas and values. No more of good, ol' paranoia. It's time to hit things my own way.

LITTLE MISS (The Awards Edition)

Hear ye! hear ye!

Since for the record mostly na nakapost dito ay tungkol sa sarili ko, kailangan namang bigyang pugay ang mga taong nakapalibot sa akin. At least, I have to give it to them. Sila iyong mga taong gumagawa ng araw ko. Sumisira at nagpapakaganda ng mga araw. Mula pagmulat hanggang sa pagtulog. Ang mga taong, kahit papano, ay nakakakilala kung sino ako.

Kaya I give you the best of the best. The cream of the crop. (Part I)

LIttle MIss almost PErfect: MAC-MAC

Siyempre, hindi puwede ang perfect. Almost nalang. She almost had it all. Not because biased lang talaga ako but because of a thousand and one reasons. At kung i-try ko i-enumerate hindi kakasya. She has her way of making me sway to her demands and making me laugh during my most emo time.

LItTLe Miss GrOwEE: IA

HIndi ko alam kung may itatangkad pa siya. Sana naman, wala na. Ayoko lang magmukhang 'nano kapag kasama ko siya. Unbelievable ang mga tantrums na hindi ko alam kung papano niya napapanagutan. Pero I always believed in her. Always. At sana kasingkontento ko rin siya sa buhay.

LIttLE mISs JOhnSons & JoHnsons: SHANE

Budgeted ito. Siya iyong hindi nabubuhay kung hindi nagpupulbo. May supply always ng face powder. Sana konting inch pa sa height. Pero okay na ring hindi. Masayang kasama. Nakakatakot ang tawa. At may hawak ng world record sa pagpunta sa CR during class hours.

LiTTle MIsS MIsUNdeRStooD: RAT

Siya ang taong pinangingilagan. Hindi dahil physically incapacitated siya. Pero dahil lumelevel sa mga kontrabida sa TV. Pero for the longest time na nakasama ko siya, siya na siguro ang pinaka- transparent na taong nakilala ko. And, I value her for that and a lot more.

LiTTLe MIsS emO: PIE

Siya sobra ang swing ng emotions. One time, sobrang saya, next thing you know, umeemote na. Kailan ko lang naaappreciate ang value niya. Ang dami niya kasing tulong na ibinigay...haha. Taga- sagip sa exams. Tutor. Kasama sa kabulastugan. Sa lahat ng tripping. At higit sa lahat, kasama kong delayed!

LIttLE MiSs Clasmeyt-4-lyF: CHIKI

Don't cha judge me, madah-fackah asshole! Shit you! Almost ganito tripping niya. Hindi ko rin alam bakit. Sa frndstr, sa blog sa journal! Kaklase ko mula gradeschool hanggang college. Ay hindi pala highschool! Kasama ko ring bumabagsak.

LiTTle MisS SunShiNE: ... ;)

Ayokong mag- elaborate. The tag says it all!

Eto, muna... abangan ang susunod pang kabanata!

Acually! Part II

3 things!

things that could make me mad.
1. screeching sound of bottle caps
2. a late night phone call
3. someone messing up with my things.

things that could light up my day
1. a hearty laugh from nanay (totoo 'to)
2. morning sinangag
3. good movie

things I hate about school
1. math
2. flunking exams
3. boring subjects

things I lose always
1. watch
2. hanky
3. money

things I do in major bum moments (walang konek?!)
1. sleep
2. watch movie
3. mess up tmy whole room

things I wish I have
1. time with my tatay
2. a good transcript after graduation (wala na 'to)...
3. psp... come December, haha!

things I wish I knew
1. drive
2. cook
3. math (agen?!)

things I wanted to grow old with (I've got my reasons here)
1. bicycle
2. camera
3. someone I could spend my lifetime with ( hindi siya thing ha!)

biggest frustrations
1. Not to graduate on time
2. not trying my hardest to keep up with the challenges I had
3. disappointing my family, and myself

crazy things I want to do
1. to ride a bicycle butt- naked
2. to blow the biggest plastic balloon
3. to live under the sea ( joke!)

I wish I could
1. star on the next 007 film
2. fly a plane
3. write a book

morally- obtuse, what- nots!

This is the trend. Join the hype. Be one of us.

My neighbor for about a lifetime now, nonchalantly said that her classmate from highschool, was pregnant. All the while I thought she was just joking. I knew about the girl, she was apparently my schoolmate from highschool. Now, she officially joined the bandwagon of what-now-sex-starved-teens.

It is almost just as normal as murder and kidnap cases. Knowing someone from your neighborhood is preggy with his then-boyfriend-turned-dad-to-be. Just a week ago, as I was brushing through the torments of enrollment, I happen to get pass someone. Clad in sweatshirt under the oppressive heat of the sun, donning a wash- faded loose pants. As if trying to conceal that little bulge.

Here comes the issue of PMS.That oh-so-juicy topic of ORGASM, FELLATIO and everything that contribute to the accolades of SEX. Time and time again, our parents would barage us with morals, no matter how deafening, about indulging ourselves in sex.

I, for one, don't have anything against sex. It's urge and pleasure at the same time, no matter how subtle we put it. Take this for example, if you are couple engaging in pre- marital sex and I tell you STOP, would you stop? For crying out loud, I won't. In the first place it doesn't concern anything about you, much more it's none of your goddamn business.

Even politics is taking it's cue on the issue. There's this controversial Reproductive Health Bill. The is an act providing for Natinal Policy on Reproductive health Bill. All in all, the policy is anchored on the rationale that sustainable human development is better assured with a manageable population of healthy, educated and productive citizens. It guarantees universal access to medically- safe, legal, affordable and reproductive quality health care services, methods, devices, supplies and relevant information to say the least. With a little more sensible modification and alteration, I say, the idea is reasonable.

This is exactly my point. You cannot stop a couple indulging in pre- marital sex. What's there to do is to point out the the circumstances of their action. Teach them the idea and information they needed so that they would not be stupid contributors to the sorry doom of teenage pregnancies and all the stuff associated with it.

The will, ability, and commitment to respond to the needs and aspirations of our partner is solely ours. It is our obligation to decipher and distinguish between facts and myths on sex and sexuality. The problem is, affection and intimacy affects our sensibilities as human beings. If we cannot, in any way, abstain ourselves from the pleasure of sex, then, it would be a prerequisite for us to know the circumstance of our actions.

Joining the trend is easy. Just the labels that go with it calls for endurance.

Practice SAFE SEX. Happy you! Happy World! tataaaaaa...

It's OK

For the longest time I thought this was very important. For the longest time I thought this would spell- out everything.

Honors! Being on top of the class list. Not until I learned my sister's depressed because of this. I, on one hand, had been over it.

Since I started going to school, I would reap honors. From gradeschool to highschool I would be part of the top students. Not until I went on college. It was a bitter pill to swallow that things aren't the same as before. It takes more than just an ounce of effort. Now, I got over it. Thing is, Honors wouldn't always be everything. Pride? It is more than just it. Honors, for some reason or another, could only do so much.

Knowing that my sister's frustated because she hadn't been in the honors list the second time in a row is appalling. She is very affected. I know, I felt this many times back then. I feel for her. I hope I could do something to ease her pain.

I learned this without prior warning. I got into college. Felt like I could conquer the world and continue the so- called glory days of my highschool. But fate had different plans. The glory I fancy about wasn't didn't follow suit. Worse, the tables were turned. It fell right smack on my face.

Realization could really hit you hard. Bad thing, I wasn't ready for it. But for Mac-mac, she has all the time in the world to be ready. To recover. To achieve more than just getting her name pasted on that bulletin board. I learned this the hard way. I am hoping, she wouldn't delve into this much. Get over it and conquer the world in her own way.

This, really, could only do so much. It won't spell- out everything. Pride, fame, honor? I will just last as the sweet euphoria would. I wish my sister could be over this soon. I wish. As for me, I would be at her back, pushing her up when her knees would wooble. I'll be here for her, for them. Always.

Delayed!!!

Nov4. CAS Building. Math Faculty Room.

'Eto na 'yon. Nakuha ko na results ng exam. Ang kaisa- isang exam na makapagspell- out ng graduation ko. Excited ako, feeling ko ipapasa na ako ng teacher ko. Pero sa minsanang pagkakataon, itinakda siguro ni Bathala at nagsanib- puwersa ang lahat ng Diyos at Diyosa na hindi ako ipasa. Hindi pa puwede sabi ni Lord. Kaya 'eto, naglulunoy sa kaalamang hindi gragradweyt at mae- extend ang buhay sa kolehiyo.

Pero, expected na ito. Ganun lang talaga ako ka- optimistic na kahit pa baliktarin ang mundo feeling ko papasa ako. Umaasa pa rin naman ako sa tsamba. Sa swerte. sa grasya. Problema, nashort circuit siguro lahat sila at hindi nakaabot sa akin. Mas problema, sumabog pa!

Sina ba kasi ang letseng nakaimbento ng Math na 'yan? Sino ba kasi ang gagong nakadiskubre ng Calculus? Mula Integrals, Derivatives, Related Rates at sangkatutak na Theorems. Lunod na lunod ako sa numero. Kailangan ko ba lahat ng iyan pag nakatapos na ako? Magagamit ko ba iyan sa trabaho at sa buhay ko? Tama na 'yong alam mo ang basics. Addition, subtraction, multiplication, division. Feeling ko naman normal na ang buhay kapag alam mo ang apat na ito. Bakit kailangan pang pahirapan at dumugo ang ilong?

Kasi nga, na-constipate ako nang magsaboy si Lord ng talino sa Math. Nang makalabas ako, hindi ko na naabutan. Ewan ko kung bakit, pero dyslexic siguro ako sa numero. HIndi ko talaga maintindihan ang mga iyan. HIndi uubra sakin ang isang gabing aral sa math. Kahit nga isang linggo pa!

Hindi ako ga- gradweyt. Masinsinang usapan naman ito kasama si tatay. Sa akin, tanggap ko na. Nag- emo kaunti, then okay na. Mga 5. minutes lang, poof! Seryoso, hindi ko alam kung paano sasabihin sa tatay ko. Alam ko kahit sabihin niyang okay, masakit pa rin. Isipin mong unico hijo at panganay niya, hindi ga- gradweyt. Pero alam ko maiintindihan niya. Alam ko rin siya ang unang uunawa at magpapagaan ng loob ko. Pasensiya nalang, kung na- short ako konti.

Ganito pala feeling! Pero hindi ako frustrated, disappointed siguro. Never frustrated. Mabuti nalang andito pamilya ko. Okay na rin ako. Running joke na nga rin sa bahay. Kahit mabigat, nakikisakay. Ano pa nga ba magagawa ko? Haaaaayyyy buhay...

Masaya sa bahay. Magpa- party ang nanay. Nagtawag ng kapitbahay. May sound system. Naghanda ng marami. Saya. Sobrang saya. AS in super- ultra- mega- saya. Saya. Sa sobrang saya tumutulo luha ko!