tennis' hot

School's out right now and there's nothing left to do at home. This calls for MAJOR BUM MOMENTS. I've been glued on the boob tube for the whole day. I was watching Australian Open from 8 am to 9 pm. I've watched this series last year and witnessed how Novak won the title, though I didn't get to catch Serena winning the womens end.

I've been always fond of tennis though I could not get a hold on playing the sport. I mean I could hit a couple of balls but nothing close to all the technical genius these players could do. And another thing, tennis always has the most good- looking players ever. I mean, good-looking as in hot, hot, molten hot (Randy Jackson eh?!).

So here's my choice for the hottest tennis player

Ana Ivanovic. World no. 5 as of the moment. I didn't knew she was Serbian not until I saw the her country on the scores tally flashed on screen. She won 2008 FED Cup. Too bad she couldn't sustain her hold on the top spot and was overtaken by Serena and a fellow Serbian Jelena Jankovic. But goodness she's hot. Simple, radiant beauty and a high sense of style. I watched her game a while ago and unfortunately she lost.

Daniela Hantuchova. I first seen her at Davis Cup when I was in highschool. I've also seen her play doubles at the Wimbledon years back. From highschool up to now she still is hot. I don't think she's gone through the upper top ten rankings but she's still seeded as of the moment (19, I think). The game she had earlier was an upset, too bad. But she's plain hot.

Dinara Safina. That innocent, pretty face that masks a tenfold quality of tennis genius. She's not another Russian player who comes into court and amaze the crown with her killer strokes. I mean she plays good, power tennis. I watch her play while crying at Wimbledon. It was a sorry fall for a top- seeded player. Nonetheless, she still continues to play awesome tennis.

Maria Sharapova. After Ana Kournikova, I don't think there's anyone who could match her hotness level other than Sharapova. I thought she was just another pretty face but prove me and the others wrong by winning the Wimbledon a couple of years ago. Unfortunately, she encountered a series of injuries and still recovering from it. I was expecting to see her stuff at the Australian Open but she's still not fit. But looking forward to other Grand Slam tourney this year.

A lot more grand slam events in store for this year. A lot more chances of seeing them strut into the court amidst the flashes of the camera and the cheers of the crowd. These girls are not just beautiful and hot but they play fascinating tennis that will leave you in awe.

*****

Nice fancy from someone who smacked his face with a racket

What? Why? How?

I've encountered a lot of questions lately, mostly personal, some uncalled for. It's about 2 months until my supossedly graduation day, but fate had different plans and I'll be extending my life for the next six months in the university. So, back to these querries.

My classmate Ashlee asks,

What's your plan after graduation?

Me? Honestly, I dunno. I'm trying to imagine myself getting into med. school. Pero, mahirap na. Ganitong- ganito ang tumatakbo sa isip ko nung incoming first year ako sa college. But really I wanted to pursue medicine, only problem is I don't have the finances. Ayoko namang umasa nalang uli sa tatay ko. But given a chance, I'd rest or maybe have a job for six months then if things would go the way as planned then I'm set to go.

Siguro more than anything else, I wanted to vindicate myself. Ang pangit ng nangyari sa college days ko and I think I'll have to prove myself this time around. Other than syempre, pangarap ko maging doktor. Lately ko lang narealize.

The NINJAs kept on asking Nahuhulog nga ba?

This was about one of my blog entries na binasa nila. It was something like I'm falling for someone I dont want to fall for. Deleted na ang post na iyon ngayon, not because I was affected but because I could not find the reason to justify the entry. Thing is, I didn't fall for anybody. I'm into my own love issues myself and I don't want to complicate things on getting another. Someone is the subject of the entry, but I was actually relating the impression of someone apparently been linked to a girl who couldn't lay down her own true intentions. It looks like the other way around but hell, guys could also get dumbfounded and lost. There is nothing more than that. I have gotten over it. For some time I've been trying to deluge myself of actuations not clear to get away from my own issues. Hindi ako nahulog! Wala ngang galos! hehehe

A jogger guy I came across this morning asked if I'll be graduating?

Right at this moment, this is the hardest querry. Back then, when I wasn't been over of the fact that I could not get my diploma on time, I was trying to formulate rather polite replies. Now, I give my brief, straight answer. HINDI!

One classmate asked if I'm planning on making a family right after college.

I've thought of these way back in highschool. Kung after ba ng skwela, magkakapamilya na ako ng akin. You see, wala nang bata sa bahay. The three of us has been on the roll trying to get on the fast ride of what life has to offer. Gusto ko ng bata, gusto ko ngang magkaanak, kanino naman? As much as I would like to fast track time, I couldn't. Marami pa siguro akong dapat pagdaanan. In God's time, I'm excited but not desperate.

A fellow CMLIer asked why fisheries?

Eto na naman tayo, siguro lahat ng subjects ko nung first year natanong iyan. Siyempre diba kailangan mo'ng magpakilala, highschool mo, sa'n ka galing, at bakit iyan ang kursong kinuha mo. Noon instant sagot, because I love fish. All rolled into one, sagot ng isang bobong hindi nag-iisip na nanginginig sa kaba at pinatulan na kung anong unang sumagi sa isip niya. 'Yong iba kahit papano may sense, ako, hanggang nagayon hindi ko mahanapan ng sense ang kursong kinuha ko. Buti pre-med pala.

Finally, I am asking myself what now?

Totoo, hindi ko alam. Nakikiagos nalang, kung saan patungo, kung kailan titigil, kung para sa ano. But, I'm always been on the positive side of things. There's a reson for all of these, I may not be able to realize it now but in the near future I would have enough wisdom to decipher things. I've got plans and even if at some point I go astray, I would try to pull my strings and stick to what things should ought to be. Everything's there for the taking and I'm up for the challenge.

"I have never tested you beyond your strengths." AMEN.

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Never Again

" Kung ok ba tayo, ok na rin ba lahat?"

Everything's through the moment you turned your back from me. It was a conscious effort to forget you in every possible way I can. I won't be calling you anymore until the wee hours and talk about you and me. I should have known, there was never any you or me or us. I would stop talking about all my plans and aspirations as I dreamily associate you into all of them. Had I known?, I would not have wasted my time imagining and babbling. I won't be looking forward for the summer breaks and cause you too much trouble to go back home and indulge into nothing else but silly,non- sense thrill of a love-sick guy. I have no intension of pestering your life anymore. I wouldn't care less.

I knew it was coming. You were slowly slipping away from me and I was also loosing my grip. But you knew how much I sacrificed for this. You knew damn well how worse I have become to salvage what we had from bad fate. It scared the hell out of me. You had your choice. You had the alternative as opposed to something not giving you what you deserve. I had put so much, too much for what I am capable of doing. Unfortunately for me the work was all from my side. You gave up, that easy. I tried to grasp for my one last luck, it was all thrown into vain. Our ending was bad.

I understood you. For someone who grew up different from mine, it was a feat. You really can't get away from the life you practically grew up with. I, myself could not also. But you had me a whole lot. You twisted my being into a carousel of emotions. You made me feel my worst and slump me into deep shit. I was never mad, to you, to those involved into the evident display of disapproval, to your lifestyle, to the circle your in. Being with you, I have came to accept that I could never change you lest I should bear with it. But things can get so tiring. My ego came into full- burst.

Im trying to live my life a thousand miles away from you. Back to my normal, ordinary routine of normal and ordinary men. Getting on with what life has to offer. For sometime, I was successful keeping my mind away from you. Successful on imposing that nonchalant facade to hide away the hurt you have caused. Everything's good and fine. I kept on, kept on fooling myself.

But fate has unwavering plans. I knew sometime we could be coming across each other. I wasn't ready, not even expecting. You were there, looking the same as if the days hadn't passed. I thought my folks were just joking, trying to fuse with the gist of the holidays. A moment or two I hadn't moved. It was the first formal and plain talk after the fall out. For the longest time I set myself not to be associated with anymore. I didn't answer your calls. I gave up my phone so you would not have any means to contact me. I changed e-mail. I didn't got to meet my folks whom you're close with. I was bitter, hate to admit that. But I knew, time would etch it's way between the two of us. Too bad for me I wasn't been ready after all this time.

You started with an apology. I blankly accepted. Thing is, we didn't get to talk because I don't want to. I have my pride and I want to save it. You see, talking to you would just make me drop off my ideals and make a fool of myself once again. I don't want to speak with you because I'm afraid I could lash out bad things for hurting me a lot. I'm afraid I could hurt you and regret it in the end. Yes, you caused me my feelings but I always do care and I never intended to hurt you in any way. You said sorry, it was overwhelmingly a relief. Good enough to face a new year without bad blood.

"Can we start all over again?", I was taken aback. I didn't expect it could be raise up, much more coming from you. I badly want us again. I'm aching for the days where we could just slump into the grass and watch the nightly spectacle of fireflies. But you knew it will never be the same again. I'm afraid it will be doubly hard this time around and I'm not confident I am capable of sustaining it just like the old days. It wasn't the hurt, it's the thought that we can't come to past the factors around us.

"Kung ok ba tayo, ok na rin ba lahat?" It will never happen. The past years we were tracking different perspectives. Too different we would clash again. Eventually, we would just get tired, back to slipping away and loosing grip.

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Senti mode na naman ang lolo. Tigilan na kasi, nagmumukha lang gago. Gago na talaga! Kung sino nakakabasa nito, huwag umepal. Sa mga nakakakilala, huwag manadya.

Masyadong sensationalize... !

SayD TriP (1st sa 2009)

If someone says we need to talk, what runs through your mind?
-Ok! na-rape ka ba? Ninakawan? Nabugbog? Tell me! C'mon (joke!)

Are you in a good mood? now?
-I'd like to think I am

What made you sad today?
-Nothing, the whole day was pretty nice

Are you ok with making a fool of yourself?
-No, never in my wildest dreams will I be one (ows?)

What was the first thing you did this morning?
-Watch my sister's game

Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you?
- I think so and hopefully it will just be this way, but I know it won't

Do you currently miss someone?
-No one in particular

Do you know anyone named Taylor?
-Yes, Taylor Hicks from the American Idol (hehe!) close kami... joke

In the past week have you felt stupid?
-No

Do people ever mistake you for being a different race?
- spell asa, capital A-S-A!

Were you happy when you woke up today?
- I can't tell, it's been the same normal stuff

Do you know the words to the song/songs on your Friendster profile?
- Yes, melt with you by Jason Mraz. The OST for 50 first Dates

Last thing received in the mail?
- Copy of Grades from the College Sec

Besides this, what are you doing?
- Nothing, just being a bum again

When was the last time something bothered you?
-I'm always bothered. Paranoid!

Have you ever fallen asleep on the telephone?
-No, I hate talking on the phone for hours.

When was the last time you cried?
-I can't remember

Have you ever told anyone you were okay when you really weren't?
- I guess so

Are you fighting with someone? now?
-Hindi, mabait ako! It's not worth to have bad blood against another

Today,would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?
-Go forward a week, malapit na field trip

Where was the last place you went besides your house?
- To another school just near my house

Do you have any feelings for anyone right now?
- Nothing, but people are assuming and it's safe not to squabble. I just let them think what they think, it's basically not much of a budge. Though, I'm not used to it! I easily get annoyed when people teases me. It's been a conscious effort for me not to strike back (I mean, physically...hehe)

Do you know the last person you were in a car with other than family?
- Yes

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
-I don't know, never been there but I think for someone to last six months with me is a feat (hehhe!)

How many months until your birthday?
- 6 months to go. I'm not looking forward to it though.

Do you have your eye on anyone?
-No, I easily get disappointed so it's safe not to get deep down

Last sporting event you watched on TV?
- QATAR Invitationals. Doubles match between Federer and Bjorn versus Blake and McEnroe. Nice game! The legends are a bunch of comics.

Are you sleepy?
- Yes, but I have to be awake

Is cheating ever okay?
- Yes, contrary to popular beliefs cheating could not always mean bad. You cheat to get ahead of others (competitive). You cheat to satisfy needs (resourceful). You cheat to achieve a feat (optimistic... tama ba 'to?). You cheat to be saved from loserdom (fighter).
*** Babala! Ang taong nagsulat nito ay hindi dapat tularan. Salot sa lipunan. LOL

Can you whistle?
-Yes

Waiting on anything?
- Yes, but I can't point out in particular

What shoes did you wear today?
- Rubber shoes, I have a game earlier

Have you ever fallen in love with someone you didn't expect to?
-Not at all and people think I have. Sorry for them I haven't. Given the situation, I think, you really can't control the driveseat.

Would you rather have your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?
- Gorgeous eyes. Gorgeous smile would come because of me. Shhhiyyeeeettt! Corny!

Ever found more than a dollar in a random place?
- Sana at hindi ko na isosoli

Did you take a nap at all today?
- Yes

Are you a patient person?
- Not at all, not patient, never patient, never will be!

Is it important to you if your friends like the person youre dating?
- So-so

How's your heart lately?
- Bad, I've been on check-up during the holidays. Heart ailment. Nothing serious I hope. Ay, hindi ba ito ang tinutukoy? Sori! Pero normal pa rin. (ows?;P)

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
- Yes, it's nearing the Australian Open and I happen to fancy that Daniela Hantuchova

You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life,what is it?
- Water, silly question!

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
- I guess

Does the person you like, like you back?
- I don't like someone at the moment

What will you be doing in 3 hours?
- Study for Biochem exam

Are you ticklish?
- Yes, nasa dugo na iyan

Are you a jealous person?
- I'm obsessive, needless to say I am.

What usually cheers you up?
- Good food, Good company

What are you wearing?
- Shorts and Shirt

What are you thinking about?
- My nearing exams. How could I possibly pass those?

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A new year has dawned. Whew! What a year 2008 was. For me, the past year has been a realization. A lot of realization I guess. Many of those had left me dumbfounded and if I get into each of every detail will still get me dumbfounded. At the very least, I still had been appreciative of what's coming on my way. I should be, of course. But, 2008 has ended and cheers to the new year. A new year ahead bringing hope for me, for you, and the entire universe (corny?... feeling ko rin!)

Enough of the new year first, this post is, basically, for persons. I mean, persons in my life. Those that made my 2008 a year that was happy, static, dumbfounding, amusing, full of blunders, frustating, mad, bizarre (korek spelling?), uptight, stressful, jaded. A year of learning and discoveries. This was made possible by a lot of people. Persons I value and appreciate most and those that I don't (hehehe!). Hence, it's only fitting to thank them in my own personal way.

PS: Sa mga makabasa ng post, may bayad 'to.

FRiA and Mac- Mac

The two most important girls in my life. Salamat sa kwento. More than anything else, you taught me the value of laughter. Sa mga kwentong walang sense. Sa puyat sa holidays hindi dahil kailangan maghanda kundi sa kwentuhang walang katapusan. Salamat sa company. Masaya 'pag kasama kayong naglalaro. Kahit pa sabihing matanda na ako para maglaro. It will always be a treasure knowing that you've given so much value on the bond that we should have. Lulubus- lubosin ko na 'to, the next couple of years hindi na tayo magsasama. Puno na ang sked, hirap na 'kong makipag- appointment sa inyo. Joke. I will always be loud and proud of telling the world what you are made of and what you are capable of doing.

Kay Mac- mac, I just wish for your wish to be granted. Ayokong isulat kahit alam ko, baka hindi matuloy may rason ka para sisihin ako. Kasama akong nagdadasal. Sana. It will only be fun times with you. Salamat.

Kay Fria, sana lumuwag- uwag na rin ang turnilyo katulad namin. Joke. I always wish I could be that contented like you.Hindi ko alam kung 'asan mo kinukuha iyan. Pero sana maaambunan ako. One year to go, hindi na rin tayo magsasama madalas. All the best.

And when the three of us will be weary of the rough road we are in, I hope we could find way to come back to where life is never too tedious. Back in the days of major bum moments. Back to conversations, road trips, laughters. I would not wish for the day to come because I know it will. And until that day, I would be happy of where you are and what you are.

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Senti mode ako. Naisip ko 2009 na. Dalawang sem. nalang sa 'kin. Alam ko, after ng college, kahit ayaw ko magtrabaho kokonsensiyahin pa rin akong hindi tumulong. By that time, aalis ako ng bahay. Si mac- mac by June college freshman na. By next year uli, si Fria college na rin. Hindi na talaga kami makikita- kita. Senti mode, pasensiya! And iba, sa susunod na kabanata nalang gutom ako!