I've encountered a lot of questions lately, mostly personal, some uncalled for. It's about 2 months until my supossedly graduation day, but fate had different plans and I'll be extending my life for the next six months in the university. So, back to these querries.
My classmate Ashlee asks,
What's your plan after graduation?
Me? Honestly, I dunno. I'm trying to imagine myself getting into med. school. Pero, mahirap na. Ganitong- ganito ang tumatakbo sa isip ko nung incoming first year ako sa college. But really I wanted to pursue medicine, only problem is I don't have the finances. Ayoko namang umasa nalang uli sa tatay ko. But given a chance, I'd rest or maybe have a job for six months then if things would go the way as planned then I'm set to go.
Siguro more than anything else, I wanted to vindicate myself. Ang pangit ng nangyari sa college days ko and I think I'll have to prove myself this time around. Other than syempre, pangarap ko maging doktor. Lately ko lang narealize.
The NINJAs kept on asking Nahuhulog nga ba?
This was about one of my blog entries na binasa nila. It was something like I'm falling for someone I dont want to fall for. Deleted na ang post na iyon ngayon, not because I was affected but because I could not find the reason to justify the entry. Thing is, I didn't fall for anybody. I'm into my own love issues myself and I don't want to complicate things on getting another. Someone is the subject of the entry, but I was actually relating the impression of someone apparently been linked to a girl who couldn't lay down her own true intentions. It looks like the other way around but hell, guys could also get dumbfounded and lost. There is nothing more than that. I have gotten over it. For some time I've been trying to deluge myself of actuations not clear to get away from my own issues. Hindi ako nahulog! Wala ngang galos! hehehe
A jogger guy I came across this morning asked if I'll be graduating?
Right at this moment, this is the hardest querry. Back then, when I wasn't been over of the fact that I could not get my diploma on time, I was trying to formulate rather polite replies. Now, I give my brief, straight answer. HINDI!
One classmate asked if I'm planning on making a family right after college.
I've thought of these way back in highschool. Kung after ba ng skwela, magkakapamilya na ako ng akin. You see, wala nang bata sa bahay. The three of us has been on the roll trying to get on the fast ride of what life has to offer. Gusto ko ng bata, gusto ko ngang magkaanak, kanino naman? As much as I would like to fast track time, I couldn't. Marami pa siguro akong dapat pagdaanan. In God's time, I'm excited but not desperate.
A fellow CMLIer asked why fisheries?
Eto na naman tayo, siguro lahat ng subjects ko nung first year natanong iyan. Siyempre diba kailangan mo'ng magpakilala, highschool mo, sa'n ka galing, at bakit iyan ang kursong kinuha mo. Noon instant sagot, because I love fish. All rolled into one, sagot ng isang bobong hindi nag-iisip na nanginginig sa kaba at pinatulan na kung anong unang sumagi sa isip niya. 'Yong iba kahit papano may sense, ako, hanggang nagayon hindi ko mahanapan ng sense ang kursong kinuha ko. Buti pre-med pala.
Finally, I am asking myself what now?
Totoo, hindi ko alam. Nakikiagos nalang, kung saan patungo, kung kailan titigil, kung para sa ano. But, I'm always been on the positive side of things. There's a reson for all of these, I may not be able to realize it now but in the near future I would have enough wisdom to decipher things. I've got plans and even if at some point I go astray, I would try to pull my strings and stick to what things should ought to be. Everything's there for the taking and I'm up for the challenge.
"I have never tested you beyond your strengths." AMEN.
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