Sayd TriP (Yearend Edition)

(BEGINNING OF 2008)

1.Where did you go on New Years?
Bawal daw umalis sa bahay that time of the year

2. Who were you with?
Si Nanay, Fria, Mac-mac

3. Did you kiss anyone at midnight?
Why wait for midnight?

4. Did you make any resolutions?
I'm trying to

(LOVE LIFE OF 2008)
5. Were you in a relationship at all?
A lot... as friend, as son, brother,

6. Did you get anything for Valentine's day?
I think so...

7. Did you meet anyone special?
Hahahaha...hahahaha... LOL

8. Did you fall in love?
Nevah... I'm on guard

(FRIENDS & ENEMIES OF 2008)
9. Did you meet any new friends this year?
Yes, a bunch

10.Did any of your friendships end?
Not at all, but I think some took a backseat

11. Did you dislike anyone?
A lot and I've got my reasons

12. Did you make any new enemies?
Wala naman, I guess

13. Did you resolve any fights?
I didn't get into any fights this year

14. Who was your closest friend?
No one in particular, I think those from highschool

15. Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
It isn't something to regret for

(ALL ABOUT ME 2008)
16. Did you change at all this year?
Yes, a marked difference, I think

17. Did you dye your hair?
No ;)

18. Did you get your hair cut?
Once every month

19. Did you change your style?
Anong style?

20. Were you in school?
Yes, and due to mandatory academe demand, my life in school will be extended

21. Did you get good grades?
Kahit papano, for this year I passed all my subjects...

22. Did you have a job?
Fulltime resident BUM

23. Did you drive?
I can't

24. Did you own a car?
NO, umasa pa

25. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, dalawang kaklase ng kapitbahay ko since time immemorial

26. Did you move at all?
Ano tana ginawaka kang survey ka ja?

27. Did you go on any vacations?
If I could consider the road trip a vacation then I think so... But yes, I was in vacation

28. Did you leave the country at all?
Oo, as in like this year I've been a jetsetter (joke na marami)

(MY BIRTHDAY 2008)
29. Did you have a cake?
Sa eded ko, hindi na ako umaasa ng cake

30. What did you do for your birthday?
Nothing, schoolday, so I was practically bounded to be present in my classes

31. Did you get any presents?
Wala, what would I expect? But I ain't bitter, lulubus- lubusin ko pagdating ng tatay kong mutant.

32. If so what was the best thing you got?
If I talk about things, you might have an impression that I'm so mushy so I'd rather not

(NAUGHTY OR NICE 2008)
33. Have you drank alcohol this year?
I don't drink, anyone who likes someone who doesn't drink will be proud of me. Seriously, I've got allergic reaction with alcohol. (uuuuuyyyyy!)

34. Have you done drugs this year?
Kahit hindi, on normal days para pa rin akong addict

35. Have you been kicked out of a store this year?
Never pa naman. Ano kaya feeling?

36. Have you shop lifted this year?
Hindi, kakatakot kaya! Baka ma- TV patrol ako, malaman ng tatay ko. Tumalon sa barko at langoyin ang pacific ocean pabalik ng Pilipinas para lang umbagin ako.

37. This year have you gotten a detention?
Nah, wala. Good boy ako!

38. Have you cheated on a test this year?
Modus operandi ng batch iyan. Bali, 3rd in command ako

39. Have you raced this year?
Yes, dahil lang walang representative ang college namin eh napilitan akong mag- track and fild. And far from surprise, siyempre, kulelat ako.

40. This year have you broken the law?
Hindi, law- abiding citizen ako!

(CONCLUSION OF 2008)
41. Is 2008 a good year?
So- so, basta I've got hundred and one reasons.

42. Did 2008 bring any new insights?
Na kahit papano maswerte pa rin ako. Kahit papano mabait akong anak. Kahit papano eh appreciated ako.

43. Do you think 2009 will top 2008?
I'm up or the challenge.

44. If you could relive any moment which would you choose?
Ayokong sabihin

Pit Stop

As the light from the sun diffuses it's ray in the vast sky. As birds begin to end the day's worthwhile flight. A common man ending the constant, unvariable ways of his work. With vehicles finding it's last stretch of motion on the road. Eventually, dusk fills the place. Spreading darkness as distant as it could reach.

Another day's ended. A temporary stop to one's weary hand. A layover for someone's stressed body. While the night is in deep slumber. As patches of stars shed a twinkling gleam. Echoes of wind whistling a lullaby. Time to rest an exhausted soul.

A man could not almost escape exhaustion. A sun risen in the east would be new for every man. Expecting nothing less but pleasant surprises. Aided with faith and an uncanny knack for mysteries they set forth with their journey. Oblivious for the risks they might ran into. Unmindful of where fate would take them.

He starts a day with zest. A day to dance, to sing, to have fun, to learn, to love. Vigorously discussing the ways of life. Enthusiastically exploring the mysteries the world has to offer. Taking time to smell roses, tasting the sun- sweet berries, sprawling into green grasses.

Bounded with their day to day responsibilities. A day to master that utmost tiresome routine. A day compressed with passions, hopes, and dreams. A day to complete those half- written stories. To get to know strangers. To comprehend stange words some people try to squabble.

People live their day not with the way they want it. They keep on repeating the mistakes they had in the past. As they keep on going the arduous track of life, they would be hurt, by the same people, with the same reasons. Either way, it's but necessary to forgive and forget. For some, it may take a while. For others, it comes in a jiffy. Within their track, they fail, tumble, and fall. On this day, tomorrow, the next day after tomorrow, by the following week. It doesn't specify date, nor cause.

But a day would always signify firsts. First achievement, first breakthrough, first dance, first swim, first love, first heartache, the first fear. In day spent with ponder and muse time is relatively slower. If spent with merriment it goes like a flash. A day could make or break you. In times of failure, learning is an option. Standing up and taking the right road ahead. In moments of anguish, healing may not seem so distant. Breathe and be free. In periods of great gladness, learn to look back. It's not hard, to stop and be thankful.

After a day full with learning and worth, comes the cue where the sun would set. As a day comes to a halt, everything must conspire. Taking time to rest a weary soul. But more than a state of inactivation, the dark signifies a constant reminder. Recall, recount, remember. People live by memories, tied to someone else's memory. And memories is all what makes a person yearn for the following day.

The dusk, may be the end of the day. The last and final period. Last achievement, last breakthrough, last dance, last swim. An end to love that tingles, the last torment of heartache, and fear would cease. But last would not always mean end. Last could only arouse hope. Fervent and fiery. Hope for the sun to rise the next day. Shedding light to the wholeness of the horizon. Hope of a new day, memoirs, and life itself.

Christmas on the road

For a couple of days I've been thinking how I could spend Christmas this year. It's been like the old, traditional way and it's not getting fun anymore. Good thing, my cousin offered to hit holidays on the road. I thought it was much of a joke, thinking that it's Christmas and it should be spent the traditional way. But what am I squabbling about? I wanted to celebrate it with more pizzaz. So we hit the road on Christmas Day.

We ended up spending Noche Buena at Maasin. It was a lot of eating. I was talking about me, of course. I realized I ate that much. Though I didn't woke up welcoming Christmas. I didn't have Noche Buena the night of the 24th. I was dead tired that I slept the whole duration of our stop. All in all, they had fun while I spent the festive mood in slumber.

I attended the early morning Christmas Mass at Badiangan. Trying to keep up and visit old friends. Again, I was half- awake the whole duration of the mass. I'm trying my hardest to keep my head afloat, otherwise, I might have sprawled right there and then.

Yes, it was unconventional. The type that could raise eyebrows of my elders. But I was happy, we hit it off the road on Christmas Day. The kind I want this holiday. I think I'll end up here, there's a lot of people outside for the late Christmas party.

Merry Christmas to all. Wishing you every bit of blessing this season. tataaaa...

The world I want

Lord knows how I badly want to travel. I knew a whole lot it is merely a dream. A dream, as a matter-of-factly speaking, just bound to satisfy my imagination.
I wanted to travel. To explore places. I know, it's a mean feat to travel to these magnificent places here on Earth. But I ain't gonna fall back. I would, in anyway or the other, should be savoring one of these places in my own right time. Tataaaa...

silly

musshy, soppy, pathetic, LOVE

And I said to love: "But I am open to you."*

And love said to me: "The wind is made of air. There is air inside your house, but everything is shut up. The furniture will get covered in dust, the damp will ruin the paintings and stain the walls. You will continue to breathe, you will know a small part of me, but I am not a part, I am everything, and you will never know that."*

All the while I thought I couldn't get into the statement's point. Putting into context how much fear I have of letting my emotions get the most out of me. Or so I thought.

Maybe it was the movie marathon that rattles me this way. May be it was that melancholic Unchained melody that strikes a sudden twinge. A love lost would be the tragic part in most love stories. But when the one you love passes off, putting an end to loving is never an option.Eternal love, never- ending, unceasing.

Or was it because Across the Universe caught me into a psychedelic world revolved around the world's most famous songs. Waves of Beattle's song narrating a story that has never been told.

Amidst the political tensions, the war movements, and lifestyle's clashing. Still, love prevailed.

Perhaps learning to speak your lover's language. A forbidden love that speaks most of seduction and lust. The heat of passions that grows into a forbidden love affair. Love disallowed and precluded begets secret. Secret deep and dark. Even so, no matter what, love will endure.

Love is intoxicating. Trap into the Memoirs of a Geisha. More than ambition, more than freedom, more than pride, love can transport you into the hypnotic trance of succumb. Demented by a poten spell of beauty and mystery. It uplifts, elates your spirit.

What if angels walked among us, and one of them fell in love with us. Sometimes, we defy rules.

We challenge even our own firm ideals. She didn't believe in angels until she fell in love with one. Feeling is believing. In the City of Angles love is the mutual destiny.

We say loving is a state of mind. We interpret different notions, values different persona. We hate tackling the matter. Since, indulging ourselves into the psyche of affection could hold our defense down. I, for one, can be held guilty.

In the end, we always wanted to control conditions . Reality would creep it's way into sanity. That is, love could take it's course no matter what the circumstance. In the most unthought fate. Virtually, to the most startling fashion. To whomever. Whatever. Wherever.

I guess, I better be ready!

Happy Holidays! ;)

*the Zahir

Bull's Eye... ouch!!!

Name: Ronald Patrick Famisaran
Date: 12/20/2008
Colorgenics Number: 24317506

You are very ambitious and because you seek and need recognition, you try in your own way to impress people and you want to be looked up to - to be both popular and admired. You feel that there is a gap which separates you from your fellow man, or woman as the case may be, but this anxiety is an unnecessary one. Keep on the way you are going and you may surprise yourself.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.

Conditions are rather confusing at this time. You would like to involved with a particular person or a particular situation butyou are holding back. You find it difficult to make a decision. You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.

You need to be respected as an exceptional individual. This is the only way that you can hope to achieve the status that you wish to achieve. You set yourself very high standards - and come what may - you abide by them.

This one's fom Goldinuniverse.com

Pyrophorus noctiluca

There I was, watching the nightly spectacle of fireflies dancing in unison. Like ethereal fairies trying to bid goodnight as you await yourself for slumber. I wish I could be just fireflies. As intangible as air. Unusually light and delicate.

Never did I fail to be fascinated with the rhythm they possess. I would always be in utmost awe as I watch them frolic and cavort against the melancholy the dark night has to offer. The radiance of the light that weaves a pool of memories. Memories I wish would just dance along with the fireflies and fly away with the gust of cool wind.

I must have been just too affected. The last time I watch the lavish display was with the one I value most. I was too busy with delgiht watching fireflies I never came to notice things. Along with an ounce of pixie dust, she took off and flew with the wind.

But fireflies always have to be back every night in good ol' days. They wanted to submit everyone, as much as they could in their hypnotic trance of fire dance and frisk. I was a victim of these. Lured myself in enchantment and could never break free from the spell they cast upon me. I was spellbound nearing insanity.

When days would be off. When nights would be harsh for them. They hide. Within their kingdom they again contrive. Finding ways for a whole new saltation that only them could ever know. A tepsichore of sorts, enabling them to thrust into someone's mind and afflict disorder. Again, only them should know. And only them can get away with it. Just them.

And now, with too much struggle that I have to endure. My mind was too consumed. Losing too much vigor and flesh. I, daresay, I'm utterly ruined. The radiance of their light has cost me my sight. Blinded and incapacitated. Hypnotic karma. My last clasp, futile!

That is why I would love to be a firefly. Never the dumb spectator. Thing is, I could never really took off the precept in my pocket. Could I dare cast off light of intense glare? Could I be dancing my own way to deception and enthrallment? I can't. Only fireflies could.

I'm looking forward to the day the fireflies would shed their lights off. I'm awaiting the time when they would be weary dancing and just can't go on. When they would just be blown away by the wind and fall hard on earth. Down, down, down, thud. Big thud!

All for them to realize how it is to encounter an endless fall. Of how bad it is tasting the moist, cold earth! Until then, I'm keeping my hopes up while finding a counter spell for the demention they have caused me!

SAyD TrIp 4

1. if your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
- I'm mad... the type that I would kill someone anytime

2. if someone hit you, what would you do?
- hit back... depende, sometimes I just laugh it off

3. what do you do for a living?
- carwash boy... jowk!

4. would you still study after college?
- sana, gusto ko pa but due to inevitable circumstances I'll lay my plans off for now

5. last time you laughed so hard?
- i dunno... basta masaya naman kasi mga clasmeyts ko, no dull moments... so almost everyday tumatawa ako

6. has anyone told you they missed you lately?
- hahaha, uy kilig, uy kinikilig

8. last book/magazine/etc you read?
- hour game ni David Baldacci

9. have you bumped to a glass door?
- never pa naman

10. do you regret anything from your past?
- a lot, but I dont have to dwell on that... bitterness becomes of me then

11. if you could seek revenge on someone would you?
- absolutely, definitely, matter-of- factly

12. how do you react when people cry around you?
- depende, but almost a quarter annoyed. Ayoko ng may umaatungal sa harap ko na nagmumukhang tangang racoon. Pero marunong pa naman ako ng tinatawag na "sympathy."

13. last argument?
- day before yesterday, nagplano ng xmas party ang batch

14. do you have a crush?
- ayoko, madali akong ma-disappoint... ang standards nagsa-skyrocket... (du c sino eh!)

15. do you know how to belly dance?
- no, I won't dare try

16. what are you listening to right now?
- Make it mine by Jason Mraz

17. last beverage?
- tubig

18. last person u'll miss?
- also the last person who's missing me

20. favorite month/s?
- April, May, December, July

21. would your parents be mad if you get someone pregnant next year?
- Disappointed never mad

22. would they be mad if you were to be sent some place far from their reach?
- Gusto nga nila 'yun para hindi na ako maburo sa bahay

23. what were you doing last saturday?
- nagtapos ng thesis experiment

24. the most weird thing in your house?
- may cabinet sa sala

25. are you racist?
- I'd like to think hindi... Pero kasi ultimate pintasero ako

26.How long have you been breathing since birth?
- 20 yrs., 4 mos., 6 days

27.What are you doing right now?
- net

28. Have you cried today at all?
- no

29. What is the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
- I can't remember... I actually don't drink

30. Do you want to be in a relationship?
- I don't want any complications

31. Do you actually believe in perfection?
- It's just a state of mind... How woud you qualify perfection in the first place?

32. What do you prefer? Sunny or rainy?
- I want it sunny...

33. Have you been to New York City?
- flight ko nga bukas, pack up and ready to go... hhehehe ;D

34. What do you think about before you go to bed?
- the people I value

35. Who were the last people to lay in your bed with you?
- no one, I don't let anybody sleep in my bed... sa sahig kayo!

36. Where did you sleep last night?
- Kwarto ko

37. How many close friends do you have?
- No idea... but my clasmates in highschool are my closest

38. What is your fave song right now?
- Nothing in particular

39. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
- meron kahit papano

40. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
- I guess so

41. Do you wear glasses or contacts?
- malapit na

42. When is your next road trip?
- this coming saturday... masaya 'to!

Buhay Peyups sa Bisayas

1.ANO ANG STUDENT NUMBER MO?
- 200556015

2. ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
- Fisheries... non- quota eh!

3. SECOND CHOICE?
- Psych

4. ANO COURSE KINUHA MO?
- Fisheries...

5. NAG-SHIFT KA BA?
- Nope

6. CHINITO/CHINITA KA Ba?
- HInd kaya

7. NAKAPAG-DORM KA BA?
- Oo, transient

8. NAKA UNO KA BA?
- Oo (tikal!)... PE pop ballroom

9. NAGKA-3?
- Hay, collection ko 3

10. LAGI KA BANG PUMAPASOK SA KLASE?
- may self- declared holiday ako

11. MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA BA?
- parentl scholarship... libre bahay, kain, tuition, allowance, pamasahe, groceries, etc. etc.

12. ILANG UNITS NA ANG NAIPASA MO?
- duh... would it matter?

13. NANGARAP KA BA NA MAG-CUM LAUDE?
- oo... nung hindi pa ako nakatungtong ng UP

14. BAKIT?
- akala, puro na lang akala... akala mo magaling ka, akala mo matalino ka, akala mo hari ka... sige magpaburo ka sa maling akala (nominated Urian Awards- Best Actor in a Suicidal Role)

15. FAVE PROF/S:
- Si Maam Aguilar, Maam Toledo

16. WORST PROF/S:
- Lahat ng binagsak ako!

17. FAVE SUBJECT/S:
- Math Series, Physics, Analytical Chem, Organic Chem, Biochem,... naman!

18. WORST SUBJECT:
- PEP, CWTS

19. FAVE BUILDING:
- FC conference room... pidlaoan (ang daming bloopers na nangyari)

20. PABORITONG KAINAN:
- Tita Terry, Cano, soon to rise... Bentoy's place

21. MAGKANO BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SA JEEP?
- wla... tryk lng

22. LAGI KA BA SA LIBRARY?
- siyempre... sayang aircon

23. NAGPUNTA KA BA SA GUIDANCE?
- oo, kumuha ng permit

24. MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?
- wala... it's not worth the hype

25. ANU-ANO ANG MGA NAGING PE MO?
- pop ballroom, badminton, swimming, PE 1 (According sa grade)

26. KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOCK NYO?
- tagal na nadisintegrate... second year pa lang... mga 3 nalang ang super regulars... ako? never mind!

27. MEMORIZE MO BA ANG ALMA MATER SONG?
- hindi, para ano?

28. MEMBER KA BA NG VARSITY TEAM?
- overqualified!!! yun 'yon!

29. NAKA-PERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAM?
- huwag umasa...

30. DITO KA BA NATUTONG UMINOM NG BEER?
- eeehhhhhhh... hindi ko guso ang beer.

BOW...

Upheaval ;(

Days went like a blur. It's been too fast-paced for me the couple of weeks ago. I've been struggling getting myself out of the stack of activities (daw oh?!). Now, is the time where I should stop with what I'm doing, be free from the stress, and go on with frolic and fun. December 1st, it's like 2 or more weeks before Christmas. You have to give me this!

I have to post the very first day of December. I know I should. Right now, I just wanted to fast- track time to Christmas Day. Not because I'm looking forward for gifts this Christmas. I'm not, and my ninongs and ninangs are nowhere to be found that day of the year. I'm also not awaiting the endless parties and soirees. It'll just bore me to death. I'd rather couch myself at home and enjoy in my own way.

But don't get me wrong. I'm happy for the coming holidays. I've always been. But that's not what I'm giddy about. I need to rest. Relax. Chill. I hardly had any rest since the start of the semester. I didn't know it could be this hectic. After all, I'm not graduating so I thought I could get a little more stroll here and there. Hopeless me, I'm doomed.

And here's another issue. It's a holiday. But I still have to go back to the laboratory. This is okay for me since I have to get my ass going. I have to finish my thesis at the least possible time before I could get a thorough scolding from my adviser. My issue is that the lab., the vicinity I mean was a haven for lovers. On my way to getting samples from the hatchery to the wet lab. I encountered about 3 pairs.

I have nothing against them. It's good that they have someone labeled as their special ones. Only thing bothering me is how they could have all the guts in the world to get intimate in a public place. As I was walking, trying my hardest to carry 6 liters of sample, I was distracted by a couple necking. I mean, it's none of my business. I should be minding my own. But I could have broken the bottles because of them. I could, in any way, cannot be doing my work if my sample spilled.

For Pete's sake could you, at least, get a room? There's nothing wrong getting intimate and all that sorts. If it's your way of showing affection, then be it. But I don't get the idea of getting it on in a public place. It' down and dirty public display. Even, the terminology can be an understatement. It's public display getting overboard. Now, I'm not at all surprised of how many pregnant teens I could pass along this days. I no longer wonder why there are many fetus found on garbage cans and public CRs.

Now we're thinking!...