Haled Tricio ;(

I'm in the midst of giving up and breaking down. Cause? My THESIS. It has been 3 months since I started to work up with my topic. 'Til now, even if the sem. had ended, I haven't passed a single proposal or any of that sort. Talk about being a major bum.

But then again, I'm an ordinary student who's trying to find his way against the grueling current of college. I'm in my last year, and hopefully, my last year of burning the midnight oil (cue theme song here). Well, I really doesn't care anymore. I know I could have done better the past years. But there's no point dwelling on that.

As a senior, I'm entitled to work on a study. In my case, I'm working with microalgae (I'm taking up Fisheries, by the way). I mean the proposal was good. The vision was great. I just don't know about the end- product. I'm really concerned about polishing the production process. Problem is, I have but a measly few knowledge about the process itself. Everytime my adviser would explain the mechanisms and procedures, I just cannot follow through. I'm asking her barrage of questions since I could not figure things out. She might think I'm dumb or what but I could not just get into her standards.

I should have picked a topic that delves with my interest, you may say. Honestly, I don't have anything within the scope of Fisheries that interests me much. Considering the circumstance of me, taking up Fisheries then it's safe to say I really don't have much of a choice really.

I'm thankful, anyhow. My adviser's good. She's great, actually. The people I work with are kind and considerate and all that. You know what's eating me up? It's pressure. Capital P-R-E-S-S-U-R-E! I have all the help I need but I'm afraid I could get stagnant and disappoint people. I'm afraid things won't end up good, to say the least.

I'm starting all over again. Back to proposals and stuff. Deciphering what should's and would be's. I hope I can get it right. I'm hoping against hope that I could do this. I'm holding on to the adage that one's I' m done and work's good, I would contribute something beneficial for science. I should not think of this as a ticket to pass requirements and be over with college. Now we're thinking. hehehe!

Funny, at this point in time, I'm trying to weigh on whose names should I put in the acknowledgment page. LOL;p

Wish me luck! The title's kinda' archaic, Just trippin'...