Post- summer rant

Summer fun. Summer love. Summer's ended.

Ok, I just need to do this. I think I've been in rave for quite some time now and I just really need to do this. I know there's a thin line between protection and prevention, yes, I hope this is coherent with what I'm trying to arrive at.

I bet it comes with the air of being the "big brother" that you just have to have a say with anything that concerns your sibling. In my case, I hope I could do just that. Thing is, you always have to be cautious of what you have to say because you might just have offended someone or in my case initiated a cold war between me and my siblings.

My sister's in love. Don't ask me why, I could only give you wisdom par with that of a 10 yr. old boy when it comes to this matter. And, she's feeling I don't like the guy for her. Well, yes I don't. And I bet my sister's thinking "I've got one hell of a jerk brother". And I don't like that, so I need to justify my actions. But every justification I have in mind would only lead to me not approving of the guy at all.

Now my sister's concern because everyone (I guess, I won't be held cuprit alone!) in the family doesn't show much liking to the guy. Many thanks to his selfish brother who in any way deprived his sister of the joy of loving and being loved no matter how mushy it may sound. Thanks to his obnoxious brother who would rather cut off his sister's chance to feel the care from someone aside from her family. And be grateful to his goddamn egoistic brother who would exclude his sister from commiting in a relatonship that would make her happy.

And my lungs would burst any moment. Disgusted with my own self.

I wouldn't want to be the good brother basically because I could not qualify myself good by any means. But, I want to be considered as the brother who looks for the best interest of his siblings, someone who understands. I guess I better just have to accept the fact that my siblings are in the rush of youth. And they need this, for them to learn, inspire, and understand.

Cut the downright display of disapproval. I just need to live by it. In the end, all I want is my sisters' happiness.